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[youngerpetrelli]

075. TEN things you should talk to a therapist about.

[Locked from just about everyone except those closest to me -- mainly 'cause there aren't any therapists I can tell some of this stuff to, and some of it's pretty private.]

1. Dad didn't like having such a 'sensitive' son.

2. I'm Mom's favourite but she wanted me to blow up and kill .07% of the Earth's population for Linderman's stupid plan.

3. I think Mom was sleeping with some of the other Company founders.

4. I think Dad was sleeping with some of the other Company founders, and I don't mean Victoria!

5. I seduced my brother when I was 17.

6. I'm... a bit of a slut.

7. I like it rough, and I can't be permanently hurt. I don't really have to spell this one out, do I?

8. I'm jealous of the people I know who can be pierced/scarred/tattooed/marked.

9. I let the Company drug me into submission, run tests on me, and nearly convince me I didn't want freedom so I could keep those I love safe from me.

10. I really am terrified of hurting the people I love. I nearly killed my brother when he saved the city from me blowing up.

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Muse: Peter Petrelli
Fandom: Heroes
Crossposted to thetenspot

Comments

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

I suppose I'll shift over here, then, since it isn't private in the other journal...

Self-examination is always good, but sometimes it can bring out things we weren't ready to fully face.

If it's any consolation--as far as I know, besides your mother, I think your father was only sleeping with one of the others?

[youngerpetrelli]

He was a bit of a hypocrite about things, wasn't he...

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

Just a bit, yes.

[youngerpetrelli]

Just... please tell me it was Linderman, and not Bob or Maury. Please?

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

It was Daniel, yes. How Bob or Maury ever managed to convince anyone to actually end up having their children baffles me.

[youngerpetrelli]

I think I'd almost be willing to let the Haitian extract that mental image from my mind, except that I know I'd remember it sooner or later, and ewww...

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

Sorry.

[youngerpetrelli]

Not really your fault. It was skulking around in the back of my mind anyway...

So. Um. More pleasant things! Is there a way to solve that little problem of mine? *blushes* The marking one, I mean.

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

...Maybe. I'm not sure...

I met someone. You, but from the future, but...not our future. A future where Nathan...never came. Didn't...save you at Kirby Plaza. Where you exploded there...

He has a scar.

[youngerpetrelli]

You met-- what? How?! And... oh god. That's... god.

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

He came back to try and fix things--found it was fixed and...his world didn't change. I don't know how. If timelines diverged or...I don't know how. But he's you. Mostly. There are...differences.

But the scar he got after he got Claire's healing ability....so. It is...possible. Somehow.

...Not that that's really something to make it suddenly as...intriguingly sexy as it was.

[youngerpetrelli]

So it's true, then. Alternate universes every time we change something...

...you think he's it's sexy...?

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

Apparently so.

What? I...didn't..that's not what I meant. I meant, you were talking about marking during sex so that my bringing up a scar another you bears that he got doing something that's broken him up inside likely wasn't exactly in the mood you were going for. I wasn't saying...I mean...that's not what I meant to...imply.

[notacargojet.livejournal.com]

I don't want to think about some of those, but... If you want to talk, I can try.

[youngerpetrelli]

I can't wrap my head around how she could go along with something like that, you know? It's just... so fucked up!

[notacargojet.livejournal.com]

You didn't mention the fact that I was going along with it.

[youngerpetrelli]

You were coming around at the end though, or you wouldn't have come to help me when you did. No one was forcing you -- you did that on your own. And... I've learned Mom's always been really good at manipulating people.

[notacargojet.livejournal.com]

I love you, Peter. I could never let anything hurt you.

[youngerpetrelli]

I'd be even more fucked up if it wasn't for you, Nathan.

[notacargojet.livejournal.com]

That's... reassuring. I guess.

[youngerpetrelli]

I think it is.

[notacargojet.livejournal.com]

Well, good.

Some things would be less fucked up if I weren't around, of course. That's one of the things on your list there.

[youngerpetrelli]

No! No it's not. I'm scared I might hurt you, but that doesn't mean anything would be better without you around! Don't say that!

[notacargojet.livejournal.com]

Peter...

I love you.

[youngerpetrelli]

I love you, too, Nathan.